Just to balance on my heels

I've had a rough past and been in trouble a time or two... but I always strive for something better. I never wanted to be more than a good mother. I was a single mother of three dancing in clubs and even prostitution a time or two just to provide. Now I'm finally in my first house... A rental.. but house none the less. My children I left with my mother to get on my feet. She has since filed a restraining order against me and refuses to let me have them ..or even see them. With the attorney fees I took out loans to keep up and the house cost n my old car... things just keep piling up. I've taken a second job but an stil barely balancing on my heels. I'm writing this praying someone will understand and be the biggest godsend I've ever prayed for. I just want to clear my debt and bring my kids home.....
Strugglingsurvivor.